I don't know.

I'm not sure how to start this, because I'm not sure
what I am trying to say. But I know I want to be heard.
I want to express these feelings that seem to linger.
They disappear for a while, but they always arise again,
to show me they are still present. Still there to torture
and torment me with the unknown. I hate that I even feel
this way. And I know it's probably my own fault. But I just
wish I knew how to fix it. If I could take all of this and
just throw it all away, I would. But I'm not sure how to.
I don't know what I need. And I don't know what I want.
I just know that there has to be something out there that will
satisfy, something that will cure this. I just have to find it.
I don't know where to begin on this pursuit of happiness. But I
believe I will eventually find out, figure all this shit out. Until
then, I don't know what. I just don't know.