Is This Really What She Wants?

This is no more, and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. Maybe it's for the best, but all I can see is the bad. I've thought about this for so long and I've come to the conclusion that people come and go. And that everyone turns out to be just as shitty as you thought they could never be. I miss her and I still love her, I'm not going to lie. But the more and more I think about it and about what she has done to me, the less and less I care.

I was there for her when nobody else was. I listened to her when she needed someone to talk to. I helped her when she was in need. I believe I was a good best friend. But now that is all gone. And for what? Nothing at all. A simple problem, which leads me to believe she never cared at all. That I never mattered as much as she made it out to seem. If a person can let go of something so easily, it obviously meant nothing from the beginning. And that's what always happens to me. I always care way to much, and I believe they care for me, but in the end they never care and I'm left hurt because I cared so much. And I ask myself why the fuck do I continue to do the same thing, and the answer is because I always believe that the person is different. I always believe they really do care. That's why from now on I care for no one but my family and myself. From now on I will not put so much effort into something that is lost so easily.

I'm done being the best friend I can be and getting shit on by people I thought loved me. Words mean nothing to me anymore. Everyone is a liar. Everyone is careless. Everyone is selfish. Everyone is the person I don't want to be with. Everyone will let you down. And no one is there forever.