No more.

I've been fighting with my sister and mom for the past two days. And I cannot take it anymore. I hate fighting with the two people who mean the most to me. I hate how angry I get and how it's so uncontrollable. It's so hard to explain how I feel when I get so angry and no one let's me speak. When we fight I have no one to turn to to talk about it. Except for Tonya who has been amazing the past two days. She has listened to me bitch about them and the rest of the bad things going on. I love her for that.

I'm really trying to have a good outlook on everything. But its so hard to keep my spirits high when everything around me brings them down. School, my family, my "friends". Everything this week has just seemed to fall apart. And I am sick of it all. I am going to fix the things that are broken in my life. I want to be happy. I need to be happy.

I told my mom today that I never want to talk about what happened ever again. And that I want to put all of it behind us. It's the only thing to do in this situation, is to forgive and forget. Which is my new policy on life. Forgive and Forget, and all shall be well. (:

I guess it seems pretty immature to be so upset about all of this. But I've been really emotional the past few days. But from now on is a new start. I am going to get a new piercing and start doing better in school. For the sake of my future, shit has to change.