Long Walks.

Today was insane! Tonya and I went to this party on Friday night and it was by UCF, so we had my sister take us there. And we got really fucked up so we ended up sleeping there. Well in the morning we had no way home so we decide to walk. And I never thought it would be such a long ass walk but it took forever. We left at 11 something and I didn't get home until three. And it sucked because Tonya and I had to split because she had to go to her house and I to mine. So the last part of the walk was terrible by myself. And mind you it was hot as fuck today and I was wearing black and I had my damn backpack. So it was pretty much hell. But the night was awesome which totally makes up for it (:

And tonight her and I wanted to hang out again but my mom was all like no, I think you need to stay home tonight. I was like fuck. :/ But it's whatever I am really tired lol. Hopefully I get to go out next weekend though.

On another bad note, my sister is really upset with me. I guess because I stress her out because I always ask for rides and shit. Like she was crying in the car when she was taking us to the party. And I felt like such a shitty person and a shitty sister. And my mom and her think that I don't care, but really I care so much. I love Megan with everything I have and she is the best sister anyone could ask for. And I've been treating her like shit. :( I really am going to change and not ask her for so much.

Also, Tonya pierced my nose on Friday :D Which looks fucking great! I already had my right nostril pierced but now I have both. Which my mom was pretty pissed about. But it's not like she can stop me. Besides it looks hot as hell!

I really hope my mom gets over all the bad shit that happened this week. I hate it when she is upset with me. The way she acts is so hurtful. I miss talking to her about everything and us just laughing. When she's pissed she is a whole different person. And quite frankly, I hate it. I have apologized a million times, but I guess it means nothing. I guess I have to just give it some time.

Change is such a hard thing to accomplish when it's changing yourself.